You're not fucked up, mijo. At least not any more than a lot of people, including myself. Normal human levels of messed up at most.
It's not easy because if it were easy no one would have to worry about this in the first place. But a lot of people do. You are not the first I've talked this kind of thing over with, some with and some without informational tailoring. You may not even be the last. I'm telling you this and even I've needed help and reminders.
You don't need to feel any different. It might help to punish yourself less for it either way, but hey, maybe I'm wrong. Just because it's worked before doesn't mean it will for everyone.
We can try it out. It won't be as helpful over text, maybe, but we could walk through it.
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It's not easy because if it were easy no one would have to worry about this in the first place. But a lot of people do. You are not the first I've talked this kind of thing over with, some with and some without informational tailoring. You may not even be the last. I'm telling you this and even I've needed help and reminders.
You don't need to feel any different. It might help to punish yourself less for it either way, but hey, maybe I'm wrong. Just because it's worked before doesn't mean it will for everyone.
We can try it out. It won't be as helpful over text, maybe, but we could walk through it.