un: wellcooked

[transfusionem]

I'm going to try to not make this any longer than it needs to be, because I don't see the point in dragging it out, so I'll just say it flat out.

I'm sorry for what I've done. I don't remember everything, not really, but I know I've done something that can't exactly be forgiven. I don't want to make excuses for myself, either, but I do want to give people a warning.

There's someone out there targeting people in the school, making them act in unusual and potentially dangerous ways to themselves and others. I know I'm not the only person who's been impacted by this, and I don't know if I'll be the last. I don't really know how to stop it, either, even though I wish I did.

Just be careful, okay?

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DM, UN: KA_Kiske

[bejustorbedead]

I'm another one who found themselves doing something I wouldn't dream of.

I'm just thankful the only person injured was myself, though I half-fear it was simply because I was alone at the time.

[transfusionem]

So professors have been targeted, too?

You're the second person I know of who hurt themselves because of this.

[bejustorbedead]

It was more an unintended consequence of my actions rather than I acting to hurt myself.

[transfusionem]

That's good, I think, but I still feel like this shouldn't be happening.

un: weaseling

[deuteranope]

[...Oh. Oh, shit.]

what happened?

[Even if rumors about some blood-drunk vampire or something had been circulating around campus, Mav’s been staying inside or to the forest, since coming back from his vacation a few days ago. More than that, he would never imagine Adelaide would have been the cause...and he knows anyone going through this isn’t the real cause to begin with.]

[transfusionem]

I hurt people.

[That's...the easiest way to put it. It's the truth, too. She hurt people. More than one. And she feels so guilty, so sick to her stomach, every time she's reminded of that fact.

It doesn't really matter that it's not her fault.]

[deuteranope]

I sorta got that

that shit kinda happens here
I mean
Cricket fucking got me killed for a while
so
it sucks but it ain't even your fault

[transfusionem]

He got a lot of people killed.

[Just...sayin'...]

It feels a lot like my fault, but I guess there's no point in dwelling on it. What's done is done.

[deuteranope]

yeah
like I said shit happens in this fucking school
not that I'm happy about it or nothing just...I don't think that was what he wanted
he might seem kinda shitty, but he's actually a good kid and cares about people
still fucked the fuck up
I dunno

people that know you know you're a good person that cares too. you got like...mom energy
the highest of fucking compliments coming from me tbh
and anyway...
saying that this makes people hurt themselves makes me think of some little Mousie I know
you wouldn't say that was his fault, right?
so why would this be yours if it's the same fucking thing?

[transfusionem]

It feels different, when it's yourself.
Plus it's like...
I don't know how many people I hurt. I don't know what I've done.
And what if it happens again?

[deuteranope]

sure
not saying I probably wouldn't be thinking the same thing
still, you deserve to hear what the right fucking answer is on top of that other shit you're thinking

[It won't happen again. Maverick is certain of that -- even if Akechi thought it was okay after this mess for some reason, Mav will be having A Talk with him. Leave his buddy alone... He can't exactly assure her of it without revealing too much, though.]

if you're worried you can always ask one of the guards to tail you, like they do with contracted students
I mean if you're not on lockdown or whatever I don't fucking know

[transfusionem]

[Maverick is...too good for her. She wonders if he knows, yet. What she is. The kind of monster she just happens to be.

She doesn't know if him knowing would make things better or worse.]

That might not be a bad idea.
I haven't heard anything yet, about what's going to happen.
But that doesn't mean I'm not already being watched.

[deuteranope]

they are shockingly bad at follow up and communication

there's a handful of guards that are good people
Mama's old friends from school and shit like that
if you go that route I'll see what I can do about making sure you don't get someone shitty on the regular

[transfusionem]

Yeah, that doesn't shock me.

I'll look into it. And thanks, Mav.

UN: FinalBossy

[descolation]

So you weren't really yourself when all that stuff happened?

[transfusionem]

Apparently not, no. But that doesn't excuse what I've done.

[descolation]

But that's wrong! If someone made you do it, then it's not your fault! Besides, even if it was your fault, which it isn't, you're sorry, aren't you?

[transfusionem]

Of course I'm sorry! I did things that were unforgivable.

[But everyone seems willing to forgive her, smh.]

[descolation]

That isn't for you to decide! You might have hurt people, but that doesn't mean you can't be forgiven. Desco knows she forgives you. And Desco is sorry she blasted you and couldn't stop you by herself.

[transfusionem]

I guess so. And you don't have to apologize - you did your best, and I don't hold it against you. Honestly, I barely remember what happened.

[descolation]

That's weird. Though Desco wishes she could forget, too. She still forgives you, but it was very scary.

[Please don't ever grab her by the neck again.]

[transfusionem]

I'm sorry. I'll make it up to you, I promise.

[Even if she says there's nothing to make up!!]

UN: fundirection

[hippocarnival]

now that you mention it...

there was a day back in May that I was acting kind of

wild

and I'm not really sure why I did any of it σ(￣、￣〃)

I can't believe someone would put you through that!!

[transfusionem]

Wild in what way?

It seems to effect each person differently, though I don't know why.

I don't know why anyone would. It just doesn't make any sense to me.

[hippocarnival]

like I didn't care about the consequences of what I was doing

even if I normally would

if they're still doing it there's probably a lot more people getting hurt

[transfusionem]

Yeah, that sounds about right.

I hope not. I don't want things to get even worse...But if they went after me, who knows who they'll target next.

[hippocarnival]

that's right...

I'm going to keep an eye out!

for anything suspicious

We'll catch them before they get anyone hurt worse!!

[transfusionem]

Hopefully.

I'd like to put a stop to this.

[hippocarnival]

we will now that we know what's happening

[transfusionem]

I hope you're right.
But I guess I should be optimistic about this.