posted at like 2am. un: supersenses

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Hey Ive got an open question for you all: Why do you go on the super optional death missions?

Ive been on them too because...Nightfall is everyones problem and since I can do some stuff normal people cant I kind of felt like I had to? But I never signed up to be a soldier I signed up to be a student. I got all this training to be a human blender and I got this cool daemon horn sword but

I hate knowing how to kill people and I hate that I know what it feels like to be stabbed

I dunno maybe I want to see if Im just being selfish. Might delete this in the morning

Comments

[bolderfell]

[He glanced at her, sighed, and slipped the note into his pocket. Out of sight, out of mind; but yeah, he didn't deny it was his.]

Hey.

UN: G.Akechi

[foolishjustice]

It's maybe not the most noble reason, but I like being able to feel useful.
Maybe these missions aren't the only way I can do that, but they let me make more of a difference than what I was doing before.
Not to mention, they let me indulge a dream I used to think I'd never get to act on.

[infestedcouncilpresident]

See this is what Im talking about! Im not a grownup and GVs even younger than me! We shouldnt be dealing with this shit!

[infestedcouncilpresident]

So youre what, a scion to a mage family or something?

[stavros]

My family have been Hunters for centuries. I only wish to live up to that legacy, even if it may prove difficult. We have a responsibility to the world.

[alreadyhuman]

do you think that if all the adults could handle everything in the world ever theyd be asking us?

i dont think so

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Kinda hard to sneak up on me, sorry.

[A moment of silence.]

You okay, dude?

[infestedcouncilpresident]

What dream is that?

[foolishjustice]

It's maybe a little childish, but I've always wished I could see the world, and learn about different cultures firsthand.

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Nothing childish about that. And I guess we do get around dealing with all this shit

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Haha yeah I dont think Im thinking super clearly right now but I cant sleep

[infestedcouncilpresident]

I dont think I really care anymore one way or the other

[infestedcouncilpresident]

[Huh. She doesn't reply again, but that's food for thought]

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Why do you have a responsibility to the world?

[bolderfell]

Can't complain.

[But does he mean he has no complaints to make, or he just can't make them here on campus, where he can't tell who, or what, might be listening? After a pause, he quietly adds:]

I'm not the one who was up late with the moral quandaries.

[Is she okay, dude?]

[foolishjustice]

I've been to several different countries on missions, that I never would've seen otherwise.
I don't exactly get as much time to sight see as I'd like, but a brief visit is better than nothing.

[stavros]

Because a very long time ago, my ancestor opposed a vampire who would do others harm, and in doing so ran afoul of both humans and daemons. Using a weapon forged from the soul of someone he couldn't save, he took up the mantle of Hunter to set things right as best he could.

[It's text, but it feels recited from memory, something she's heard many times before.]

Those who came after him followed first because we blamed ourselves. Then because we had no choice; as we fought the darkness, we were feared for contact with it. We were exiled. Excommunicated for at least a few centuries, until the situation became so bad that we were called by those who had pushed us aside. And then, it became clear that even as we claimed victory, it would never be eternal. Evil would always rise up again, and it followed that so must we.

That's what I inherited from my brother and my parents and their parents, going back to the 11th century. But whatever you make of yourself, you are the first of it. It would follow that you forge your own idea of your responsibility to this world, would it not?

UN: GreenDolphin, private

[strings_theory]

[Guess who's still in the infirmary after all is said and done, it's her. This is fine.]

Kinda feels like I don't have a choice in it or not, you know? I only had two options and this one was the best of the two, if it means I have to be used as a living weapon, then that's fine, I guess.

Can't say I don't enjoy fighting, but fighting and killing are two entirely different things at the end of the day.

But, hell, if that's what I'm going to end up doing after I'm done here, then I guess I gotta get used to it, huh?

[buddinghopes]

yeah, you and me both

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Sounds to me like you inherited a history of getting fucked by the rest of the world for trying to help. Maybe you should think about what yourself for a bit?

a million years later

[infestedcouncilpresident]

You could also like

not fight people? Or join a wrestling circuit? Why is everyone so casual about fighting stuff around here? Its WEIRD

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Hah!
You really did find a silver lining to all this didnt you

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Oh you can always complain. Sometimes you have to.

[She gave Therion a sidelong look, with mild concern.]

Apparently no one else around here will ask them if I don't, so I figured I'd say something. Maybe I'm full of shit but it's a conversation that needs to happen.

[bolderfell]

[Even with that sidelong look, it was clear he was even more tired than usual. He rubbed the corners of his eyes and sighed.]

It's a conversation that could get some people in trouble. There's more than a few students who never signed up for anything, let alone the fighting.

[infestedcouncilpresident]

[Honestly they both looked pretty tired.]

That seems illegal? Like war crime illegal.