posted at like 2am. un: supersenses

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Hey Ive got an open question for you all: Why do you go on the super optional death missions?

Ive been on them too because...Nightfall is everyones problem and since I can do some stuff normal people cant I kind of felt like I had to? But I never signed up to be a soldier I signed up to be a student. I got all this training to be a human blender and I got this cool daemon horn sword but

I hate knowing how to kill people and I hate that I know what it feels like to be stabbed

I dunno maybe I want to see if Im just being selfish. Might delete this in the morning

Comments

un: Galanthusnivalis

[buddinghopes]

Restlessness, I guess? I mean, I did some stuff on a smaller scale back home anyway so the missions here seem like a logical step up. So I feel like I should be keeping that up here even if I'm not part of that group in NYC anymore.

But, like, I grew up around this sort of stuff. My dad's a hunter and my mom's a mage. I knew about magic since I could comprehend things.

I don't think it's selfish to hate knowing these things though. Some people just want to be as normal as possible, and... well, this stuff sucks, we all know that. Not sure anyone sane/normal WANTS to know how to kill people or what it feels like to be stabbed.

Ah... that got really rambly... so tl;dr not selfish just as normal as this place can get I think

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Nah I get you. When I was a little kid Id watch shows about being magical heroes and desperately wish I could be like that. But I dont think I ever seriously believed in magic and daemons and candles and all that shit until they fell in my lap and now I want to go back

[buddinghopes]

That's totally fair. You're well within your rights to go "this isn't what I signed up for" and just be a student, I think.

If I'd grown up not knowing until I got thrown into this mess, I'd be the same way about all this.

un: ornithology

[hawkwardness]

[Who has no thumbs, also can't sleep, and plenty of reason to be a little bitter after everything?]

I don't know if it's selfish or not, I'm just going to answer your first question. I'm not here because I'm some selfless hero type. I mean, it bothers me this might be the end of everything, but 'the end of everything' includes me and my whole species too.

[...But he'd go on fighting anyway, if given an out, he thinks. Maybe he's more selfless than he'd admit to.]

[infestedcouncilpresident]

I mean yeah obviously the end of the world is bad news. But its all so BIG. Will it really make a difference if I, personally, keep my head down?

[hawkwardness]

[Will it? Does any single person make a difference here? Are things that much on the edge?

He doesn't know. One can only hope not.]

It's your choice. You're not a bad person to be tired of all this. Unless we're both bad people, me and you.

[nor_iron_bars]

[Strictly speaking, the Daybreak official school network doesn't have any anonymous posting options. Which is why Kohaku doesn't get this reply on the network.]

[Instead, some anonymous number belonging to a throwaway phone texts her this. The subject line is just "Your Post".]

You're not selfish.
I've had a lot of time to get used to this sort of thing. When I was your age, no one told me I could walk away.
But I could, and you can.
And that's okay.
Or you can keep doing this, and that's okay too.
The headmistress talks a lot about destinies, but the truth is there's no chosen ones.
You just choose.

[Jailbreak hesitates for a long time before hitting send.]

[It doesn't sound anything like her, and that's sort of the point. This isn't from Jailbreak, but maybe it's from Jasmine, just a little. Jasmine would have never had the confidence to say something like this, even to herself, but it's the kind of thing that might have helped her to know.]

[And if it doesn't... well.]

[This phone is going in the garbage pretty soon anyway. After all, unlike Jasmine, Jailbreak is very good at avoiding consequences.]

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Who is this?

[It's a simple question that looks flippant, but she definitely read it, and she's definitely thinking about it. She COULD just walk away. She knows how to control her powers, now. She could just go back to Japan and transfer to a NORMAL goddamn school and never worry about any of it again.

So why hasn't she?

She tells herself she doesn't know.]

[nor_iron_bars]

Let's just say "someone who made some choices" and leave it at that.

un: likesflowers

[alreadyhuman]

i do them because i have powers and i can help, so i want to! if i can stop people from getting hurt i will

but i dont think its bad to not want to either (｡•́︿•̀｡) its tough and sad and not everyones okay with it. i dont think they have to be?

one of my friends got hurt recently after a mission and it was really bad. i dunno if hes woken up yet. im gonna visit him later

i think its okay not to be okay with stuff like that

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Its like on one hand the world is in danger but on the other its so big nothing I do feels like itll make a real difference

Wait who got hurt?

[alreadyhuman]

everything we do does something though...otherwise we wouldnt be doing them in the first place!!

gv did (｡•́︿•̀｡) i dunno what happened though since the mission went okay, it was after.

un: xx_heartoffire_xx

[stavros]

I know we technically have a choice. But if no one chose to fight, all would perish. And if I didn't volunteer regularly, I would fail to live up to what I endeavour to be.

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Im not saying EVERYONE should stop because its dangerous but Im worried some people are making themselves do it when its really fucking them up

[stavros]

Perhaps so. With all that's been happening as of late... You lived as a civilian before all this. Of course it would be harder on you, too. If you need to rest, we shall continue in your stead.

[bolderfell]

[Like others who shall not be named, Therion doesn't want to answer this publicly. Instead, when he passes Kohaku's desk on the way out of that math class he has with her, a folded note lands silently in front of her.]

To answer your question from last night:

Got backed into a corner and I took a bad deal. Now I just do what I have to to survive. In my case, that means going on those "missions." Doesn't seem to in yours.

[He doesn't stop to see if she reads it, just slinks right on out the door. If she wants to catch up to him, she will.]

[infestedcouncilpresident]

[A pickpocket's worst enemy is someone who sees the whole world in slow motion and can hear your heartbeat. She noticed, read the note, then ran to catch up with the guy who OBVIOUSLY had dropped the note.

She kind of fell into step next to him and handed the note back.]

Hey...

[bolderfell]

[He glanced at her, sighed, and slipped the note into his pocket. Out of sight, out of mind; but yeah, he didn't deny it was his.]

Hey.

UN: G.Akechi

[foolishjustice]

It's maybe not the most noble reason, but I like being able to feel useful.
Maybe these missions aren't the only way I can do that, but they let me make more of a difference than what I was doing before.
Not to mention, they let me indulge a dream I used to think I'd never get to act on.

[infestedcouncilpresident]

What dream is that?

[foolishjustice]

It's maybe a little childish, but I've always wished I could see the world, and learn about different cultures firsthand.

UN: GreenDolphin, private

[strings_theory]

[Guess who's still in the infirmary after all is said and done, it's her. This is fine.]

Kinda feels like I don't have a choice in it or not, you know? I only had two options and this one was the best of the two, if it means I have to be used as a living weapon, then that's fine, I guess.

Can't say I don't enjoy fighting, but fighting and killing are two entirely different things at the end of the day.

But, hell, if that's what I'm going to end up doing after I'm done here, then I guess I gotta get used to it, huh?

a million years later

[infestedcouncilpresident]

You could also like

not fight people? Or join a wrestling circuit? Why is everyone so casual about fighting stuff around here? Its WEIRD

anon

[escardos]

[ and here’s another anon, encrypted both magically and technologically. ] Welcome to Daybreak, the only modern school that sends their precious students on death missions! A little cold of them, don’t you think?

Some people say that it’s their duty to do so, others because they feel like they have no choice. I think you always have a choice, especially when your life is what’s on the line. If I do one of those quests, it would have to be because I chose to. Not because an external factor pushed me to.

A life is too precious of a tool to mindlessly put it in danger. It’s just inefficient.

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Youre preaching to the choir my dude

But also how the fuck did you post anon to the school network