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These eggs must be about to hatch some time soon. The assignment period is nearly over and mine has yet to crack, even though I've been following the directions! I think. I do hope I haven't gotten any of them wrong. At least we haven't had much to fight while taking them about with us.

Though, speaking of which... is it wrong to feel almost empty without the constant threat of something from which to save the world? I know many of you must only be relieved that it's over, Nightfall and everything that preceded it, and yet for me, it seems as if the thing that consumed my life, all our lives, is just gone, and naught but a void remains in its place. Certainly I do not wish for further misfortune or a new evil to grow, but I'm still at a loss as far as... well, life in general.

I would seek assistance. Or at least not being made fun of.

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Not as such, no. What you're feeling is the weight of freedom and choice resting on your shoulders.

It's not something a lot of Belmonts got the experience of having. But it's not wrong to feel like it's out of place, given the sacred charge you and your family have borne for so long. Nor should you feel guilty for getting to experience it. This, after all, is the dream that the Belmont Clan fought for over hundreds of years.

"What now" is the question a lot of heroic types end up asking when they accomplish something great. "What now" becomes a burden of choice. And it might be overwhelming at first, but... reflection of life and the world, and the values you carry as a person might be of some help.

I hear that much, Kokoro. I don't have the same "long time family tradition" thing that you do, but... I look back and half my life was preparing for Nightfall and fighting daemons and monsters.

What'd they call it in myth? The Sword of Damocles? It feels weird that it's not hanging over our heads by a hair anymore.

Looking at building a life now... that's daunting. I never thought I'd really have one. Or at least one that wasn't constant fighting and training with the risk of death around every corner.

...I'm more grateful than ever to Nana for pulling me out of that self-destructive loop early. I think it's thanks to her that I'm not totally lost in this new world.

You mean, to see what might be fun, or grant a feeling of purpose again, however that may come. A daunting prospect for certain. All I can think about myself is the duty I was raised with, and I still hesitate to rest even now, just in case.

For you it was survival, was it not? It must be a shock indeed to be able to live as others do. I know it is for myself. Prior to this, I couldn't allow myself to dream of such a life, only to protect others' right to the same. Or that's how it felt.

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Indeed, to both of those things. And your reticence to giving up your vigilance is wise, in ways. There will, of course, always be dangers we must respond to... though, we cannot say if anything can possibly match the scope of what we have already dealt with.

But I suppose another way to consider it... is that your duty can be a value you still uphold, but it need not be the only thing that truly matters. As you say, however it may come, it will be worth trying.

...I don't know what I would call it anymore. Just that it was all I really knew. The life of an orphan, then a Candle against encroaching darkness. ...Never had a family. Never had much prospect for a future. Now... I've found a family, and things actually look... bright, for once.

[Though there's some part of him that wonders, wonders if there's something out there that will try to take that away...]

You've always been tough and steadfast, Kokoro. Believe it or not, I've always respected that. And your cause was definitely one of the noblest I'd ever heard. But... I think now, it's a beautiful thing that you actually can not only dream of that, but have a chance to live it.

And that life and duty can coexist in balance.

I've spoken with a few friends about the matter, but I still lack the understanding I need. Yet I'll endeavour my best regardless. At the least, it is fun to be able to relax some, even if it also feels dangerous to be tempted into resting when I shouldn't.

I will attempt it, at the least. It's been something I've admittedly resisted for some time, perhaps out of fear that if I wanted too badly to be normal, I would falter in my duties.

I don't think I was that noble, despite how I try. In truth, I fought because I had to. I believe they who fight because they do not have to, yet they go anyway, are far better than I.

your egg didnt hatch yet either...?

[Thinks for a moment.]

what if you kept the egg as a pet and taught it stuff?

Well, there's still time before the assignment's over. Mine hasn't hatched yet either...

Anyway, your predicament is understandable. I know we've talked about it before, but... I do kind of get it, a little, even if I spent only a couple of years focused on stopping Nightfall. I can't even begin to imagine what it'd have to be like with it hanging over my head all my life.

If you ask me, though, I don't think the job's over. Not quite yet. It may never be over. There might not be a great misfortune or another evil waiting in the wings, but... I'm sure there's still plenty of trouble out there. This... probably doesn't answer any of your questions though, sorry.

Perhaps? Is that what you plan to do with yours, rather than return it?

No, it's fine! It's true, too. As long as there is evil, right? Like the old saying... at least I think it's a saying, because I've heard it a lot before.

yep!! unless i have to give it back...

but if youre looking for stuff to do maybe you should too.

I shall consider it. What sort of creature do you think yours will be?

i dont really know.... it was supposed to a secret right? so it could be just about anything!

probably not gonna know until it hatches

Most likely. They did give us a good variety. What if it's something that grows to be large, though?

if its big then i probably wont need to walk to classes anymore!

.....

might have to stay outside though.

At least some of the buildings are made for Rune Armours to move through... partially...

Would you believe it pops up in stories a lot? But it makes sense.

We'll be ready for anything that might rear its head. I know it still doesn't answer what we do in the meantime, but...

or ride around campus then.... depends on how big is big.

Well, what sort of companion would you want the most?

Probably. After all, I find a lot of things I take for fact to be stories to others. And I'm sure you are the same.

hmmmmmm

well it will have to be something cute.

and i would like it if it stayed small for at least a while.....

[Perfect hug size, ideally]

I see, so you seek more of a friend than a battle companion! Something like that?

yeah!!! but if it can fight thats even better too.

I wonder how Tamers in general are doing now without the Veil? Being able to introduce their familiars and such to the world around them.

they gotta be doing much better now. it aint easy to hide a pet...

let alone a fire breathing one.

[Or whatever else it does.]

That's certainly true. I simply worry for the reactions of the people around them. The fall of the Veil was a shock to the entire world.

[Thinking, again.]

...do you think that many of them would hate candles too?

I do not think most of them would have a problem with those who saved them. Tamers, Candles, or anyone else. But there is a reason that Hunters have a poor reputation around here.

[That was their first real conversation, wasn't it?]

Because sometimes, a civilian will see something that doesn't belong in their perception of reality and seek to "put things to rights," as it were. It's a problem, and one we all must work to stop.

so all those others might become hunters too? that does sound bad.....

Or at least harbour prejudice. Bad indeed. Hunters are supposed to protect the people, not hunt down the innocent.

no wonder they didn't want to tell normal people about it....

[That, and many other reasons why.]

not sure what can be done now.

The same thing we've always done. Work to protect anyone who needs it. Is that not why we've spent our entire academic careers going around the world on missions? Well, at least once we were old enough, but you know.

still??? i thought we would have to do less of that after saving the world...

.....but i guess that is something else you could do! its sorta like hunter stuff [A Hunter that hunts bad Hunters has a pretty cool ring to it.]

Less, yes. But you're right. There may always be something the world needs help with.

Thank you. This has helped a lot. At least I think so.

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