un: likesflowers | late night thoughts about mortality with a ten year old

[alreadyhuman]

[ This post shows up at one of those 'no reasonable person should be awake at this time' hours, like 4 in the morning. ]

If you knew you were going to die

How would you feel? what are you meant to feel?

[ Vivi is not even remotely tech-savvy enough to know how to conceal his identity, so this is a great look into his mental state right now.

Which is to say: not good. ]

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un: ornithology

[hawkwardness]

[Lord only knows why he's awake this early, long before sunrise. The nights are so lonely now when he can't sleep... though he doesn't quite know why they wouldn't have been in the past.]

There's no right or wrong way to feel. Scared, angry, sad, a hundred other things. And it can change, it might change fifty times a day. That's normal. Sometimes it might be all of those at once.

[What an incredibly fucked up thing to have to say to a ten year in the middle of the time. Maybe he shouldn't where everyone else can see, but the post was already out there. Maybe they should see what's going on.]

I've thought I was going to die. I wasn't trying to feel any one thing. Just... feeling it.

[alreadyhuman]

is that all youre supposed to do? just feel stuff?

[hawkwardness]

I don't think anything you're feeling right now is wrong. Even if you don't feel anything, half the time.

[alreadyhuman]

I dont really get it...

im sorry though

for you almost dying

i know its not my fault or anything!! but its still bad and feels bad right?

[hawkwardness]

What don't you get?

It's alright. Thinking you're not going to make it alive out of a fight is different. I knew what I signed up for. And we're not going to sit around and let this happen to you without trying to stop it.