un: likesflowers | late night thoughts about mortality with a ten year old

[alreadyhuman]

[ This post shows up at one of those 'no reasonable person should be awake at this time' hours, like 4 in the morning. ]

If you knew you were going to die

How would you feel? what are you meant to feel?

[ Vivi is not even remotely tech-savvy enough to know how to conceal his identity, so this is a great look into his mental state right now.

Which is to say: not good. ]

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UN: AZURESTRIKER

[shockingblue]

[Gunvolt stirred from his sleep when he heard his phone play a quiet tune, heralding a post from one of his friends; and the tone was associated with Vivi. Reaching over to his nightstand blearily, he took his phone into his hand and read the post, vision half blurred from a somewhat restless night.

He blinked at the device, rubbing his eyes a little, and obscuring the light to not rouse Desidera or alert Monarch while they were resting. ...Perhaps blissfully unaware that Desi was already awake, and also seeing this post. It took him several moments to actually process the post, before he finally could find any words to reply with.]

Think it's different for everyone, buddy. ...And in the circumstances.

All I know is looking death in the face is... scary. And inevitable, as long as you live.

But when we all make a living defying inevitability... well, I guess feeling defiant and pushing back against a cruel fate with all that you are is pretty natural. To not go softly in the long night until you're ready.

[At least, that's how he's been looking at it...]

[alreadyhuman]

thats what everyones saying but it doesnt really help

maybe thats okay too though??

im not sure if im scared or not...im sad that other people would be sad about me. i dont want to make them sad. but i dont think im afraid. just confused.

[shockingblue]

Maybe it is okay. Think how we feel about death is just another personal bag we all have to carry in our own ways.

But I think being sad that your absence would make other people sad is perfectly normal, even if you're more worried about that then being afraid of death itself. It's... hard, knowing that dying will leave a void in the lives of others.

[There's a momentary pause before he continues typing.]

What are you confused about? I know that's hard to explain, but... just, talk about how you're feeling, maybe?