posted at like 2am. un: supersenses

[infestedcouncilpresident]

Hey Ive got an open question for you all: Why do you go on the super optional death missions?

Ive been on them too because...Nightfall is everyones problem and since I can do some stuff normal people cant I kind of felt like I had to? But I never signed up to be a soldier I signed up to be a student. I got all this training to be a human blender and I got this cool daemon horn sword but

I hate knowing how to kill people and I hate that I know what it feels like to be stabbed

I dunno maybe I want to see if Im just being selfish. Might delete this in the morning

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un: ornithology

[hawkwardness]

[Who has no thumbs, also can't sleep, and plenty of reason to be a little bitter after everything?]

I don't know if it's selfish or not, I'm just going to answer your first question. I'm not here because I'm some selfless hero type. I mean, it bothers me this might be the end of everything, but 'the end of everything' includes me and my whole species too.

[...But he'd go on fighting anyway, if given an out, he thinks. Maybe he's more selfless than he'd admit to.]

[infestedcouncilpresident]

I mean yeah obviously the end of the world is bad news. But its all so BIG. Will it really make a difference if I, personally, keep my head down?

[hawkwardness]

[Will it? Does any single person make a difference here? Are things that much on the edge?

He doesn't know. One can only hope not.]

It's your choice. You're not a bad person to be tired of all this. Unless we're both bad people, me and you.

[infestedcouncilpresident]

I dont think I really care anymore one way or the other

[hawkwardness]

[Disjointed, aimless reply. It's well past midnight. He's hardly been able to sleep since his ordeal. Needless to say, he's not at his best.]

I really don't know. Me personally, I already knew what it felt like to kill. Not people, exactly, but I'm a bird of prey. If I don't kill, I don't eat, I don't survive.

I guess stopping Nightfall isn't much different. We might not win. I might not survive even if we do. I don't know what I'll be afterwards. But maybe the world has more of a chance with me trying.