un: likesflowers | late night thoughts about mortality with a ten year old

[alreadyhuman]

[ This post shows up at one of those 'no reasonable person should be awake at this time' hours, like 4 in the morning. ]

If you knew you were going to die

How would you feel? what are you meant to feel?

[ Vivi is not even remotely tech-savvy enough to know how to conceal his identity, so this is a great look into his mental state right now.

Which is to say: not good. ]

Comments

[alreadyhuman]

[ Yaaaay. Vivi isn't sure whether to be relieved someone answered or not. Mostly he just feels sad that someone else seems to be in the same position as him. ]

oh. im sorry

Is that something you have to decide for yourself too?
Im not sure how good i am at that
Deciding how i feel about things i mean
Its really hard

[ofexperience]

You have my sympathies as well.

I think it is. It's okay to not be good at it, however. Emotions are... messy things at best, and something like this is... difficult.

[alreadyhuman]

Dyings so hard already i dont know why having feelings about it is hard too
and everyones is different so i dont know how to feel either!!

Its unfair!! i dont like it!!

[ofexperience]

It's okay to not know, I think. It's not really something most people think about until they're directly confronted with it. Some handle it better than others.

It's extremely unfair. Death is unfair and emotions are unfair, so the both of them combined is perhaps not even doubly so, but more.

... To tell you the truth, I wish I could be more helpful. My apologies.

[alreadyhuman]

i mean
you have to think about it too right? so im not mad or anything! were kinda the same. its really difficult

i dont know what kind of answers i wanted i guess. maybe i just wanted there to be something i could hold onto to make things better

but i guess there isnt anything that makes this better really

[ofexperience]

Nobody can begrudge you for that. Having something concrete would be far easier... unfortunately, being in our position is by no means an easy one.

I think the important thing is to make sure you have as few regrets as possible.

[There's not a lot of hope for him on that front, but...]

[alreadyhuman]

i dont even know what comes after dying so i dunno how to feel about that either.....

regrets?
id feel sad about making my friends sad...
but i dont think i can stop that even if i want them to not be.